Painting By Numbers

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#49

 

The decaying stool has one

Wonky

Leg.

She teeters and

Totters

Left          to          right

Staring d

o

w

n

At the razor in her hand.

 

 

#81

 

The marrow leaks out

Seeping between bony fingers

The broken rib

Still held up high

Something to examine

In solemn disquietude.

 

 

#99

 

In a classroom devoid

Of all life.

She carves abhorrent words

Into the crucified desk.

It’s simply too late

To realise

The marks are ingrained

On her bloody thighs.

 

 

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The View Outside

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Gazing out of the window

Her solitary, lethargic gaze

Drops upon a quivering

Frightened grey squirrel

Scampering through the trees.

The sound of laughter;

Children running through the fields

playing catch with cherry cheeks

and joyful hearts.

Bursting dandelion rays of sunshine

Through juniper and emerald leaves

Trace their way through the stained window

But she can no longer

Feel their warmth

On her palms.

 

 

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And I Just Want to Say How Thankful I Am

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When she sat with friends, debating what movie to watch and his favourite came on, the very one he showed her with such joy in his laughter. She didn’t close her eyes, or direct herself away. She no longer directed her attention so fixedly upon the first the thing she saw, whether it was Samantha’s so very red nails, or the fraying threads pulling apart, piece by piece, on her mother’s silken cushions, and the way their stupid, frizzy tassels would bounce from left to right, getting caught in the zip.

When her friends asked how she was doing, whether she was still upset, for the first time she wasn’t fighting the urge to cry when answered. It didn’t matter whether that particular day her answer was a yes or no. For the first time her voice never faltered, never broke. She maintained eye-contact and said, in her usual bouncy voice, plump cheeks grinning, that she felt good. It felt good to feel good.

When the bus passed over the bridge on a pleasant Tuesday afternoon, she didn’t think anything of it. It was just a bridge, it held no special significance anymore. There was nobody lain underneath it anymore, no haphazardly placed bouquets of lilies strung up beside the post, slowly but surely withering away, collapsing under the weight of the fresh rainfall.

When the two year anniversary of that day came round, it wasn’t like the one year anniversary. She didn’t wake up alone in bed, sitting up and quietly contemplating what she had done. What she would never be able to undo, like she had that very same day a year ago. No. On December Ninth two years later she awoke next to her favourite person, in their snuggly bed, just as she did every morning. She sat up, just as before. She had a few seconds to think, to once again contemplate the very event on that bridge which took place two years ago.

But those few seconds were all she needed. She climbed up, out of bed, turning round to lovingly gaze at the man sleeping beside her.

Then she went and fixed up breakfast. And the moment was gone.

 

 

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Beguiling Book Lover

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Leaving the house she

Takes one big deep

Breath.

Pacing herself, she

Begins.

The familiar route down

to where he

Belongs.

Down the village storefronts

Blushing.

Past antique dealers, knock-

Off convenience stores

Boundlessly.

Reaching the empty

Bookstore.

Gazing through a dusty

Window at the

Bewitching

Man inside, his smile illuminating

Beautifully.

Today, she whispers to herself,

Will be the day of

Blissfulness.

Clutching her bag anxiously,

Bravely,

She opens the door

Bodaciously.

 

 

 

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Dakota

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Stereophonics – Dakota

 

London – November 1939

 

Dakota’s train is running late.

She sighs deeply, furrowing her brows in a way which would render her great-grandmother quivering in her grave. She hated the thought of Dakota being anything but the most refined lady, one who sips chamomile tea with her perfectly manicured pinky sticking out into the air with perfect grace; one whom perhaps collects delicate, porcelain thimbles, on occasion painting them with her oil-based watercolours alongside her gay old classmates and discussing how she does so adore the strapping young man working behind the counter at Lloyds Bank and she so wished he would notice the way she’s changed the parting of her hair to so resemble the delicious Katharine Hepburn, who all those charming young boys do so love.

Yes, Dakota’s great-grandmother would so hate the way she sighs and furrows her perfectly pointed brows at the sight of a delayed train in the middle of Bibury station. She even, god forbid, stamps her foot down with the slightest bit of pressure, crushing a stray corn chip into the dirt. It crumbles with a resounding crackle, but it simply isn’t enough to eradicate Dakota’s intense (and oh so unladylike) fury.

‘Twenty minutes’, declares the conductor, pacing up and down the platform, ‘until the train will arrive at the station’.

His gluttonous eyes linger on Dakota’s legs in that sumptuous skirt. Dakota wants to furrow her brows at the lecherous boar, but she knows that would land her in trouble, so she walks away, deciding by pure chance to sit beside a young man on the wooden bench at the end of the station.

He is reading. She leans forward to take a, also very unladylike, nosy at his book. Ulysses by James Joyce. What a bore, she muses. Or rather, she assumes it is. She has heard of James Joyce in passing by some of the high-rise fancy men who pass through the café she works at. Those snobby literature students who think they known how the universe works just because they’ve read some books by some old Greek fools. It looked boring, either way. Nobody cares a toss about overly-complicated drivel by old men.

Oh bother, he has noticed her staring. Looking over at her, he gives her a quizzical stare, furrowing his brows not unlike her own. She falters, speaking gibberish for some seconds before commenting on how very delightful his book appears to be.

‘Oh I’m dreadfully sorry. James Joyce I see? I do so love James Joyce.’

He smiles at her, and his cheeks spread upwards jovially, a most pleasant shade of salmon pink. ‘Why yes, I do so love his prose. A brilliant modernist innovator, he deserves every bit of praise he gets!’

Dakota isn’t too sure where to go from here.

‘Ah yes, the way he just… writes.’ Pause. ‘The way he utilises those… words.’

His eyes burn into hers, and she hides herself behind her faux leather handbag nervously. Talking was never her strong suit, as you might have already guessed, she struggles with being ladylike. She feels a sudden desire to be able to talk of all the brilliant writers in the world with perfect eloquence, thinking frantically back to the snobby café-goers. Whoever did they mention? What stuck-up men did they talk about?

‘Oh yes, but the true modernist innovator could only be Wordsridge’ she chuckles nervously.

He laughs, causing her heart to unexpectedly flutter about in her tightening chest. ‘Yes, I suppose a good bit of Wordsworth and Coleridge can be preferable to those arrogant futurists of the twenties.’

Oh lord. She got it wrong. Dakota laughs nervously, something the well-read man notices she is very prone to doing in his presence. But then again, he sighs, she is a woman after all. Woman can’t be expected to understand these things. They don’t go to school, they can’t get properly educated. It wasn’t her fault, not really. But that didn’t mean he couldn’t get slightly frustrated at her.

‘Well, doll, you’re sweet’ he coos at her. A mocking grin traces its way up his face, eyes winking at her. ‘A real standup gal, you know?’

Dakota recognises his face, the familiar face. The one those sinister, gloating students at the coffee shop always give her, especially when she turns her back to get the semi-skimmed milk from the fridge to pour into their coffees. The same smug grins she receives when these heartless, arrogant men believe themselves to be so much better, just because they were born differently. They were born with access to the world, a world Dakota could never be a part of. A world in which she doesn’t belong. A world of education and experience and travelling and careers and success. A world where you are given a choice.

Dakota has never had a choice. Of course, she would like to believe she does, that is the very reason why she furrows her brows in such a way that would make her great-grandmother quiver. Because she wants to believe she doesn’t need to be the Angel of the House. The angel everyone expects the woman to be, a perfect, pristine housewife. Dakota wants nothing less than to be a well-educated, successful businesswoman. But nobody had ever heard of such a thing. It simply wasn’t done.

But she put on a brave face. She was above all that rage and anger, for now.

‘Why thank you’ she smiles, putting on her sugary sweet face. She can’t stop staring at the book. ‘Perhaps I could maybe borrow your book to read some time?’ she asks inquisitively, tilting her head to the left in that endearing way her great-grandmother does so love, as it makes her look oh so lovely and innocent.

The man chortles, choking back an exclamation of surprise. ‘Oh- oh this one?’ He lifts up the book.

‘Yes, that one’, Dakota replies, her smile struggling to remain plastered on her powdered face.

‘Honey, you don’t want to read this sort of work. It’s simple too… difficult. Too complicated for someone of your…’ He fades off, motioning towards her generally physique in a way which Dakota finds extremely disrespectful. He brandishes the book up into her face, too harshly for Dakota’s liking. She feels her face grow a startlingly unbecoming shade of crimson. She obtains a sudden desire to take his stupid, childish book and crush it into the dirt. But instead she tells him, in a set of words that would make her great-grandmother explode in her mahogany coffin, that he can keep his special, oh-so-unwomanly book and shove it somewhere where he can truly ingest its contents and regurgitate it whenever he chooses.

*

When the train reaches its destination, Dakota enters the bookstore and peruses the contents of the shelves. The shop is surrounded solely by men in fancy suits, talking to other men in similarly fancy suits. They tighten their neckties and fiddle with their cufflinks as she walks through the shop and picks up a copy of James Joyce’s Ulysses, alongside a plethora of similar, complicated and manly books.

That night she turns to Virginia Woolf’s latest essay collection, Three Guineas, and sets herself to work. One page at a time.

 

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

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Polarize

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Twenty-One Pilots – Polarize

I hated going home. I hated coming back and seeing the bruises on my brothers and mother’s arms and cheeks and leaving them unspoken and ignored. I hated going away to do exciting things and studying for a great degree, loving every minute of it, and leaving them to suffer in silence at home, all because of a monstrous father who believed he was the epitome of pity and selflessness when really he was a disgusting, contemptible creature who I just wanted to take a knife to and wrench from existence. When I saw my little brothers watery eyes and my mother’s nervous laughter, as she watched me gage the situation, I wanted to lose the makeshift halo above my head and go to the man who I hated more than life itself and do unspeakable things to the him, my father who I wish had never met my mother. Who I wish had never brought me into this mangled world.

I would be in the midst of unpacking, setting my comics and mementos out lovingly, and there he would be, coming in unannounced and unwelcome. And without so much as a smile or nod of recognition, there he would be, sitting and complaining about how very much worse his life had become in the past four months since I had last seen him. How the people at work were so very villainous and cruel and everyone loathed him although he had done nothing wrong. How he knew the last time my grandparent visited that they had looked at him with shame and disgust, when all he had done had been a perfect gentleman and treated them with the utmost respect by completely ignoring them and acting with complete ignorant indifference.

This would go one for hours, and every time I would try to join in on the conversation, no matter how meaningful or mundane, his booming, self-important voice would gloat and smother mine, as he continued to talk because he was oh so important, oh so important, didn’t you know? Didn’t you know this? You should know this, while you’re under his house they are his rules and his rules are that he is the only one who matters. And you must pity him, oh you must feel sorry for him. He is growing so old after all, he is so frail. It does so tire him out to throw plates at your mother and to violently strike your siblings. It is so exhausting, you don’t understand what it takes out of him. You must pity the poor creature, he tries so very hard and all you do is gaze at him with a look of utmost contempt. You render him unwanted and abject, and you’re just as nefarious as all those other people who regard him with utter disgust.

I wanted to be a better brother, better son. I wanted to keep these dear people to me safe, so they never had to see him ever again. He was rendered repulsive, the mere sight of him made me gag, like when I was a child and poured rotten milk over my cereal, taking one big, sour mouthful, only to spit it out over the stone tiles. Only to be beaten and whipped for making such a horrifying mess. I wanted to take everything he had ever done and do those tenfold to him. He would pay for hurting my precious family so, and I would be the one to enact this punishment upon him.

But for now, I had to remain calm. I would hide these problems, these urges, deep down. Down those stairs is where I will be hiding all my problems.

 

 

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High at the Beach

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Lana Del Rey – High at the Beach

 

She emerges out of the glistening ocean, the silver moon illuminating the perfect opal water drops, as they trail down her smooth stomach, down her bellybutton and between her tanned legs. The wind sends her ebony hair into a frenzy, stray curls getting caught in her mouth; a warm, pink tongue lapping at them, before dainty, porcelain hands elegantly trail them away. With her other hand, she lifts one finger and beckons you forward, emerald eyes gazing after you alluringly.

The blonde girl on the beach stares after her longingly, feeling herself tighten and then loosen like a coy spring, at the sight of the other woman coaxing her closer into the depths. They are both completely and utterly intoxicated, stubbing cigarette after gritty cigarette in the mustard sand, reaching for one another’s hands, simply wanting to be touched by one another in that way only two women can know how to touch. There is a special form of intuition between women that no man can ever succeed, and so it is pleasurable even to just trail a finger down another’s back, hearing heavy breaths and sweet nothings whispered into the salty air.

There are no stars tonight, they want nothing to bear witness to their carnal desires. Tripping and stumbling over stray sandcastles, the blonde woman runs erratically into the ocean, stunned by the oppressive chill of the water as it hits her thick thighs. She pauses for a moment, unsure of whether to intrude further upon the water. Her partner dives underneath the perfect stillness of the water, disappearing into a spotless ocean.

The blonde glides deeper through the water, reaching forward underneath for her partner’s hand. They touch, and the electric current trails down through the depths, the water pulsating and throbbing, their intensity roaring and aching as they sink lower and lower. Lower into a place where they can never be seen and never be watched. Free from watchful stares and voyeuristic glares.

They relax and let the water swallow them up. The bright, aquiline blue turns cerulean, then an inky jet black, as they hold one another, slipping down into the darkness.

 

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Habits

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Our Last Night – Habits (Stay High)

 

The filthy smoke cascades upwards and dances amongst the smoke rings he forms so effortlessly with bitten, pale lips unaccustomed to the sunlight. In a dishevelled, ash-caked bedroom this is where she goes to hide and remember she doesn’t always have to be placed under so much pressure.

The need to conform, to be a straight – A student, a motivated worker, a kind, generous, ladylike individual. A budding teacher, loving children and reading educational articles with an intense, eager expression of joy painted on her blossoming cheeks. The way she would have to smile and laugh along when people spoke of what a perfect, sweet and organised young woman she had grown up to be. No mess ups, no embarrassing imperfections. She was a perfect, pristine chandelier, glistening in a world of dilapidated, shattered lightbulbs. Failures who tried their best to shine bright, holding themselves together with hastily prepared cello tape, who seemed just as pristine from afar. But deep down they were filthy, downtrodden things, and they resented her for her spotless, beautiful ways. They all hated her for the way she shone without a crack in her frail, glass casing.

Charcoal hands ruffled her greasy hair, familiar lips kissing her head thoughtfully. He knew she was frustrated, that was the only reason she ever came here. Pounding on the door, raising her voice ever so slightly, the perfect façade falling down before she even entered the dismal shelter of his cramped flat. She barged through the door, kicking stray cans and food parcels out of her way, stamping her feet and making her way to the kitchen. Beside festering plates of rotting pizza and noodles, she reached into the alcove behind the broken, barely-used washing machine and pulled out the large bottle of whiskey, chugging half the bottle down before turning to look at him.

Then she did something she had never done before; she slowly paced towards him, bottle still in hand, eyes watering, and hugged him. No one had hugged this unpleasant man in many years, since his self-inflicted confinement. This startled him, the way she held him so tightly, breathing in his musty, sweaty scent and letting her own untainted, glowing skin smear and stain under his smoke-stained, unwashed clothes and skin. He slowly, nervously, reached up and held her. She was so soft and sweet. He hadn’t been so near to anyone or anything so beautiful before, she was simply blinding. She didn’t belong in a heinous place such as this. It hurt to look at her, it made him ashamed of the route he had chosen for himself, no matter how happy he felt with the decisions he had made. She made him want to change, but he knew he could never confide in her these forbidden feelings. He was here for the exact opposite purpose, to make her feel unimportant, unwanted, a unpleasant, imperfect being that was anything but the object of admiration to all those around her.

And so, as much as it made his chest heave and crumble within his timid, anorexic chest, he pulled her away and let her go. Walking away, he ran his hands through endless yellowing papers on the broken coffee table, till he found his lighter, offering it out to the silently weeping woman.

She knew how he felt, and she was extremely relieved he never said anything to her, respecting the boundaries they had set for themselves all those months ago. The last thing she wanted was this unsightly, tarnished man announcing his undying love for her. That would mean she would have to find somewhere else to relax and be herself, and there would be nowhere else. Nobody else could ever know how she really felt, really wanted to act. It would be shameful and the gossip would soon fly. She blew out another thick puff of smoke, choosing to ignore how he was gazing at her so lovingly from the corner of his grey eyes. His lips were twitching into a wary smile beneath ratty, unkempt hairs.

As they fell asleep together, resting on the peeling leather sofa, she seemed to recall his mulled, soothing whispers in her ear, serenading sweet nothings of how he would care for her, if only he had taken a route not unlike hers, instead of the one he himself had chosen. But alas, that would never happen. And so instead of kissing her on those glistening, cherry lips, he willed himself pull the one clean, soft blanket over her sleeping form, turning his back to her and returning to the world of dreams, where everything would be oh so different for them both.

 

 

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A Year and Four Months Later

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For the first time she wakes up and doesn’t envision a mangled body, limp and lifeless beneath a bridge.

The arm around her in the hard bed is the ultimate comfort, she nuzzles into the smooth chest and closes her eyes.

No, nothing.

The crisp, sharp flashbacks are gone. Or rather, they still remain, will always remain, but they’re different. The familiar, frequent visions of a bridge, cordoned off by police tape and the sullen face of the moustached investigator passing her a book in which to haphazardly scribble her farewells, the starry night of December the Ninth where she was sat, absentmindedly reading a book, unaware of what was happening mere moments away from her by someone she used to care so much for.

It still remained, but those memories were no longer carnivorous roses, barbed and thorned, which plucked and pecked at her fingers, piercing her skin. Letting it slowly, but surely, seep out her blood, one drop at a time, rendering her continually fatigued and weak. Emotional but too frail to dare contemplate what was happening or whether it would ever stop. She didn’t believe it would ever stop. The visions would never leave her, of that she was sure.

She raised her hand up above her face. Her fingers weren’t swollen or sore. They were fine. She was fine.

For the first time, she felt like she could finally move forward with the man laid beside her.

This was a new feeling, and for the first time she awoke with the sunlight streaming through the curtains, and felt overjoyed to begin a new day.

 

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Happy Valentines

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She felt relieved

And disgusted.

No longer would

She need to hide

Cowering, like a

Startled fawn.

Afraid of unwanted hands

Probing and dissecting her

From the inside out.

 

She felt proud

And repulsed.

She was happy now

Blissfully radiant

Until the phone calls

Reminded her in the

Dead of night

That he still wasn’t

Okay.

And she just left him

To suffer in silence.

 

Four A.M. she lay

In bed beside

Another. The phone

Began to ring

And she wondered

If he would really

Hurt himself

The way he said

He would. And she

Would be responsible

For another

Abhorrent butchery

Once again.

 

She retched and heaved

Feeling the familiar

Knawing sensation

Building up

In her throat.

Both men would

Watch her

From wherever they went to

When life escaped

Their decaying bodies

And they would

Push

Her serrated fingernails

Into her untainted flesh

Mangling and

Mutilating

Till nothing

Was left.

 

 

 

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Carnival

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Melanie Martinez – Carnival

Come see our carnivorously captivating carnival!

Look at the loathsomely luscious lights!

Marvel at our magnificently macabre monsters!

 

Freakish fiends looking fearfully thirsty?

Hateful eyes seeming hideously hungry?

Feed them your fragile, candyfloss heart, fine friend.

 

Explore our eccentric, ethereal estate!

The freak show thrills all!

Yes young man, yes you must join us!

 

Melody the Mermaid, from the malevolent Mediterranean,

Pouts her lips, parting to reveal pointy, protruding fangs.

 

Waeryn Wolf, wandering wailfully in her woebegone cage,

Bruised and broken, bewitching all with her biracial bellows.

 

Golnnar Gorgon, given to us gratuitously from ghoulish Gods,

Beneath bulging bandages, blistering eyes bleeding.

 

Yet who is over yonder? You seem yet still yearning,

Sylvana Succubus, serenading you slowly towards supple breasts

And arousing arse. As she arches her back, allowing you an entrance.

 

Be vigilant, virtuous virgin. Voluptuous vixens are very violent,

Nicotine lips nestle in the nape of your neck, nuzzling, nursing,

Teeth tearing through tender tendons.

 

The Carnivorous Carnival’s cacophonous clapping

Whistles on whispering, wistful winds,

Foolish boy, first of many, foraging for freakish affection.

Lustful life-blood lingering on lavender lips,

She does so desire stupid, dim-witted simpletons such as him.

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I Didn’t Think So

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Her legs opened freely. They wouldn’t close. Her entire body blossomed longingly, only wanting one thing; him. Him within her. Him part of her. Her body shook with the relentless current, twitching her fingers to and fro in an attempt to discharge the current from her naked form. Dainty fingers traced the shape of his lips, as he bit them slowly, his eyes lingering over her small, ivory breasts.

She led his fingers down the nape of her bruised neck, tracing down her slim stomach, down to the wetness below. He complied and she was melting into him, her mouth forming a perfect ‘O’ as never before heard noises escaped her scarlet lips. He kissed her forehead tenderly, whispering how he loved her, he loved her so very much. He loved her so much and she could feel it, it made her heart want to burst. She reached out her arm for him, guiding him inside her.

They came together perfectly. She whispered back to him sweet nothings, euphoric melodies of how much he meant to her. The paper-thin walls and unlocked door meant nothing, they were in a desolate void, together and therefore ignorantly unafraid of anything else. They made sweet music, slowly, relentlessly, reaching the crescendo, their all-obliterating moans drowning out everything else.

Exhausted, broken, he collapsed beside her. They both attempted to control their heavy breaths, and she swiped a solitary tear away from her left eye. It was always the left one that betrayed her. It had been so long since she had felt this way, so long since she had let herself open up willingly for a man. The past years of unwanted hands, repugnant fingers probing her, left her feeling sick and dirty. The endless tirade, the choking breaths and hidden tears she kept to herself, curled up in the bathroom, hunched over the pungent toilet, taking deep breaths and whispering to herself in shaky murmurs to calm down. Quietly, oh so quietly, she would piece herself back together, take those fractured remains and tape them up again and again, once every three days like clockwork.

No, she thought, looking to the man who now rested his head on her shoulder, caressing her head, this is what it’s meant to feel like. And it felt good.

 

 

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Disenchanted

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My Chemical Romance – Disenchanted

It was December again. Hail pelted at the windows, a thousand spindly fingers knocking on her windows in the empty flat. But whoever was so desperate to come inside was invisible, submerged in the wintry darkness which enveloped her house and hers alone. She motioned towards her wardrobe, putting on a black jumper to combat the ominous chill surrounding her, choosing to ignore the familiar figure, stood silently behind her in the full-length mirror. The man who came back every December and would never leave her side. Even as she wrote this tale, she could feel his breath at the nape of her neck, willing her to continue writing and breaking down the layers bit by bit, until the tears irrevocably came spilling down her front and her feelings poured out, uninhibited, rotten and festered from remaining deep down inside her chest for so many years.

But no, not now. She was fine. She continued writing. She continued with her evening, closing the wardrobe door, ensuring to close her eyes ever so briefly, as soon as she passed the hallway mirror, before sitting herself silently down in the living room. Relax. She had to relax. But it was December Ninth, and this was the one day a year she could never relax. December Ninth was not a day she could ever sit and relax, and act like everything was fine as she did all other 364 days of the year.

Her body slumped low in the leather sofa, trembling fingers picking at the peeling fabric. Anything to distract her. The multitude of hands continued to pelt at the windows, the tirade of unwanted memories trying their very best to claw themselves back inside and take whatever they could from her. It pleased them so, to see her break down and realise that she wasn’t over his death just yet. Oh no, and she knew she never would be. And this made them squeal and cackle with glee. Their laughter rang in her ears, her fingers reached for her neck instinctively, as the spirits willed her to claw and scratch at her already-broken flesh.

It was no use. They came every time, every night. Every December Ninth was the very same and she knew it was better to get it over with and embrace it, rather than let them grow even more furious with her. It would only hurt more later. With shaky breaths and frozen hands, she opened the window and let them in.

There was a resounding crackle; the lights all went out. A projector illuminated the bare wall beside her, and they watched their lives on the screen. It started with an alright scene, a morbidly nervous girl on her first evening at a new college. She hid her beetroot face with messy, auburn hair and bit her nails for want of something to do. He wanted to play pool, and her hyperaware body rendered her electric fingers incapable and clumsy. The reel switched, she was in his room, splayed out onto his bed, absentmindedly trailing her feet up the lemon walls and wondering what her partner would think of this if he knew. But she didn’t really care. This man was her only friend, and she would do anything to keep him.

Her body ached the next morning, covered in carpet burns and sugar-coated bruises. And she liked it. It made her feel good. But the throbbing in the back of her head would never cease, and didn’t cease until that fateful December Ninth. That night she felt an abrupt release of pain, the sudden blissful silence in her head that she hadn’t felt in months.

Perhaps, she mused wishfully, I can finally move on.

She was on the phone with her partner, walking home when she first noticed it. Police tape cordoned off the flat, officers surrounding the entire accomodation complex. Students stood around in clusters, high-pitched voices and harsh whispers muttering about a man who had hurt himself. A man who’s lemon-coloured walls were now permanently stained crimson with his own blood. A man who was so miserably, unbearably alone, and had decided there was no point to anything anymore.

The video played over and over on repeat. The one she had imagined for herself, the one of him hurting herself.

How did he do it?

When did he do it?

Did he use a knife?

And if so, did he slice his wrist?

His throat? Which way did he slice?

Left or right?

Was he left or right handed? It was so long ago, she couldn’t remember. It occurred to her for the first time that she could barely remember his voice, his face. It was all, slowly, ever so slowly, becoming a blur. He was disappearing from her memory, the carpet burns and sugar-coated bruises long healed and replaced by new ones, from newer lovers that made her feel so loved she could never forgive herself if something similar were to happen to them.

The film stopped, the projector tick-ticked and turned off, leaving her in darkness. She didn’t want to remember anymore.

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

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How to Save a Life

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The Fray – How to Save a Life

 

The rain pounded down the glazed windows, they shook and trembled under its weight.

She gazed at her own reflection, a tear-stained face with pudgy, sore eyes. His shadow paced up and down the window.

‘I-I don’t understand?’ he cried, kicking the desk, ‘I did everything. Everything. And it’s still not good enough?!’

Fingering her skirt nervously, she began to think how to phrase it.

‘I’m sorry’ she whispered. It was the best she could do. She simply couldn’t be honest. Footsteps approached her from behind.

‘You’ve used me. I’ve just been tagging along after you all this time, and now you want to leave? Just like that?’

His hand held her shoulder, and it repulsed her. It wasn’t right, sat right there upon her bare skin. She hadn’t meant to cry whilst he was inside her, but it felt so wrong, so invasive. After three years, it wasn’t right anymore.

She knew why, but didn’t want to say.

‘Is there somebody else?! One of the guys at work? Sam? David? That guy who you met at the office party? Who is it?’

From the penthouse windows, through the blurring rain, she could see the dimly lit bridge. Her fingers pressed against the cool glass.

It happened right there.

The police tape still hung, dismal and lifeless, unable to tear itself away. Flowers hasn’t been placed there for years, but when she drove past it every morning to work, she had a moment of silence and contemplation. A moment where she knew she must continue, pretending everything is fine.

But she couldn’t do it anymore. She missed him.

Time after time, she had thought she’d seen him in a crowd. The same cropped hair, the long, angular eyes and wonky grin. But it was never him.

She would stand still, her heart rocking in her chest. Then regaining her composure, she would have to continue on with her day.

Their final conversation played over and over in her head. The tearful eyes, the breaking voice, the compulsive hand around her throat. She was afraid, and so she ran away. She had never felt feelings like that before, and it scared her.

Now, five years later, she knew what those very feelings were. She had never felt them again for anybody else, which only made them even stronger and increased her yearning even longer.

Over the years she had met some men who reminded her of him. She let herself float along in woeful ecstasy once or twice, closing her eyes as they made love and imagining it was him. But then she would always have to open her eyes again, and it was never the person she had wanted.

Then the guilt came in a leaden wave, washing over her and staining her red. She tried to wash it off, but no matter what the waves kept rushing up to the shore, unrelenting.

She would always be stained.

Firm lips crushed her mouth and brought her back. She could still see the bridge. Through the very same rain that fell those five years ago, she could see him, dropping a shoe down. Testing the waters, before becoming one with them.

It mattered little. It would not be long now, she thought, and then she would join him.


 

Read the rest of my musical series, A Tendency for Bitternesshere!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Black and Gold

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Sam Sparro – Black and Gold

She perched on the edge of the leather sofa, his reassuring hands pulling her cream dress down.

‘You’ve practically got it up at your waist’ he said smiling, as she nuzzled into his shoulder.

Situations like this made her feel uncomfortable; parties were never enjoyable. Like that time when that talk, bulky hulk of a man cornered that poor young girl, rummaging between her legs, and her terrified cries echoed through the entire house, drowning out Sam Sparro on the speakers. That was it, party over.

She shook the thought of that girls’ tear-stained face out of her head.

No, for once she was comfortable.

The floor was resoundingly dry and stable. Nothing was seeping in, dripping down from the ceiling in that slow, but sure, unrelenting manner. With him she felt safe and secure. And that had never happened before.

Everyone here seemed so lovely. The drinking games weren’t like that time. That time in the empty house, with the blistering wind bustling through the collapsing walls, when those frustrated, virginal boys said truth or dare would be fun and light-hearted. That night where she didn’t know any better and had to do some horrible things in front of that camera she never knew was there. The way those two girls kissed, and for some reason, she felt like running home and crying afterwards, because she really hadn’t liked the way those boys looked at her, drool trailing down their lapping tongues and dirty chins.

Again, she shook the thought of that distant, teenage memory from her head. Tonight would be a good night. She glanced to her right. He was still there, he wouldn’t be going anywhere. He thought the world of her, and she secretly knew she was falling in love with him, although she wouldn’t dare say it. Not yet.

Somebody spilt a bottle over, the bubbling drink soaked a small portion of the carpet. It stained her ivory heels, and she jumped.

No, no, it was fine. It was nothing.

Nothing was oozing up from the ground, she was perfectly safe.

She hadn’t noticed the water starting to trickle in from behind her. It was sneaking forwards, waiting to gather itself up and sweep her off her feet when she least expected it.

A few spots of the fallen drink had smeared her dress. She covered it nonchalantly, but he noticed and fingered at the folds of her outfit. She trusted him not to do anything, just to caution her to rinse it off in the bathroom on the top floor.

But it had happened like that last time. It was how they got themselves alone with you. Get you on the top floor of the tallest building, where nobody else would ever go, and then to shove their sandpaper tongue down your throat and pull your tights down to your knees, tearing them into frayed splinters between their rough fingers. Beer-drenched lips would curse beer-drenched accusations, reproaching her for being such a filthy slut, and she felt the bile rising in her throat.

The water-logged carpet was now forming a full puddle on the ground. It swamped the table and chairs, but nobody else seemed to notice as the cold water rose up and reached everyone’s ankles. No, she was the only one who felt it, her throat closing up as she knew the sensation was approaching, inevitably as it always would.

Please don’t, she cried to herself silently, taking as deep a breath as she could. Don’t. I’m happy and fulfilled here and I don’t want it to happen again.

But it would. She reached for the man to her right and he was gone. Everyone was gone.

Water peltered down from the ceiling, flooding in through the cracks in the windows and doors. The music’s familiar, throbbing beat was drowned out, and she knew she would have to take the deepest breath she could, once again, and hope the water would vanish again.

It never worked that way.

The liquid was murky and dirty. It wasn’t brown, but a filthy red. She knew he was on his way, and, yes, there he was.

The corpse which had jumped off the bridge that December night, into the fast-flowing river beneath, was back. It always came whenever she felt the water filling her lungs up. He floated towards her in the claustrophobic container, one crushed, mangled hand reaching towards her throat.

He was angry. What remained of his face was indeterminably hateful. If his arm wasn’t utterly disfigured from the fall, he would have ripped her throat out, rendering the water an even deeper red. But he couldn’t; instead he just floated in front of her, letting her know just how much he hated every core of his being that thought she was worth anything. Worth jumping off that bridge for.

She was glad the man on her right had disappeared. If the ghost in front of her had seen him, he would have done something unspeakable. She swallowed and choked, water flooding her throat and burning her lungs.

This was all her fault. If she hadn’t let him jump, then he would still be here. The room would slowly but surely empty of the blood-stained water, the people here would have never known her, and she would never again have to deal with the familiar, uneasy sensation of drowning.

Then the water was gone; the body was gone. Somebody was calling her name.

It was him.

Sat to her right, rubbing her shoulder with such love in his eyes. And it made her want to cry. It made her want to cry because she knew one day the puddle would form once again beneath her, and swallow her up. She didn’t love that mangled man anymore, but he was at the very core of her being, and he would always be there to drown her when she was shown a chance of fleeting happiness. To remind her of what she had done.

But that was a worry for another time.

She took a deep breath of good old-fashioned air, and practiced her best, award-winning smile.

 

Check out the rest of my musically-inspired stories here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Pillowtalk

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Zayn – Pillowtalk

She takes fifteen and a half steps back. She analyses the situation.

He watches her through the crevasse in the wall, motioning for her to come closer, and kingfishers burst from his fingers in persimmons and periwinkle. They scale the colourless ceiling, shattering the weeping glass, as it rains down in sheets. Rotten, festering bedsheets, which drown out her screams as they drag her to the humming, perspiring ground.

When her tea-stained eyes open, she lifts the veil from her eyes and feels the grass sprouting between her toes. Bleeding hearts and coral bells float upwards; single, immovable petals wrapping round her candy neck.

Where did he go?

There he is, biting his pillow. Blushing a startling crimson, as he gazed at her through his dripping, peacock hair.

He hands her a balloon in the shape of his feelings. It smells like lavender and fresh snowfall.

It pops, startling her. She takes another fifteen and a half steps back, tripping over a stray autumn teardrop, and finds herself falling once more.

When she awakens, there is three of him. They each hold a hand, then cover her eyes with theirs.

It’s simply best to forget, they say.


 

I love how trippy Pillowtalk is, so I thought it only makes sense to write something that makes no sense! It’s always easy to write something weird, cause then you can just excuse it as a modernist piece that isn’t meant to make any sense.

Read more of my series, A Tendency for Bitterness, here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Joan and the Beanstalk

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Joan was very relieved when she climbed the beanstalk, to find a most handsome young prince.

Oh yes, he was so very lovely. It was worth climbing those sharp, painful vines and clambering over the oozing mushrooms. She had initially been quite hesitant, she’d heard all about what had happened to Jack after all, when he climbed his beanstalk last month.

‘Oh yes, he seemed to have fallen upon a spot of luck at first’, her mother said as she folded her endless ironing, ‘but it didn’t take long before curiosity got the best of him, and that awful giant ate him right up.’

Her mother ensured to warn Joan that she was in even more danger than any number of Jack’s could ever be.

‘Young girls are infinitely more delicious to those supernatural creatures up above,’ she told Joan that evening as she wished her goodnight.

‘You are just beginning to blossom, Joan. Be careful, for all sorts of monstrous spirits will be after your tender flesh. To creatures so monstrous, you will taste of strawberries and cream, honey and a fresh bed of lilies. It’s best to stay in here and be safe with me.’

But Joan got bored. She wanted excitement, thrills. So when the beanstalk sprouted from her back garden that very next day, it simply seemed too good to be true.

And it was certainly worth it, when she knocked at the door of the golden castle, and such a gorgeous man answered.

‘Why hello my dear’, he cooed in his honeysuckle voice, ‘what have we here?’

‘My name is Joan’, she stuttered nervously, ‘Nice to meet you’

‘Nice to meet you too Joan, please, do come in’ and he extended out a hand.

*

Hours passed in his company.

They danced under the primrose chandelier, read his strange, otherworldly novels in the massive library where pixies danced and sung, swam together in the pond amongst lilies and lotuses, which spurred to life with his every touch. Joan barely noticed the blood moon rise in the sky, and felt an irresistible urge to touch him and join as one with him, whilst the stars shone up above.

They left the pool and lay together upon the golden grass. Fire crests bloomed beneath his syrupy skin, contrasting his smooth, tanned skin with their shades of pumpkin and parakeet.

His eyes, Joan noticed, match that of the moon.

They were crimson and beautiful. They never left her face, with their thick lashes and angular pupils.

He sat up, contemplating her for some moments as he held her hand. Joan’s heart was beating out of her chest.

‘You smell simply appetizing’, he would murmur, ‘like strawberries and cream, honey and a fresh bed of lilies.’

She grinned from ear to ear.

‘I had a feeling you’d say something along those lines’.

‘Joan, my dear’, he whispered, ‘I would like to try something, if you don’t mind.’

She felt her cheeks smudge ablaze, her ears pricked up as he brought his lips towards hers.

Or, in this case, towards her throat.

*

Joan’s mother was still ironing, as mothers are so wont to do. It had been a long day, and she had so missed her daughter, who so often could be heard singing and dancing through the house. It cheered her spirit up so, and she silently wondered where her dearest daughter had gone.

A colossal thump shook the house from its foundations, Joan’s mother holding onto the worktop for balance.

What in the devil’s name was going on outside?!

She raced out, to see the emerald beanstalk, now rotting away underneath itself. Leaf by crinkled leaf withered and fell down, vines slithering to the ground, meekly curling up like Joan’s crumpled socks.

And right beside all this decay, a mangled, beaten corpse. A naked man, would you credit it! Fallen all the way from the top of the beanstalk!

And climbing down from above, was Joan.

‘Joan darling!’ her mother cried, ‘whatever is happening here?’

‘Ah yes, a colossal shame, that’, Joan declared, ‘but he tasted so lovely, like strawberries and cream’.

 


Yes, sorry, it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted a tale for my Gothic series, For I am no Lover of Lilies! I promise there will be more soon. I’m reading Grimm’s fairy tales as part of my dissertation, so that will give me plenty of ideas for stories!

I’ve also been eyeing up Angela Carter’s Book of Fairy Tales, which I’m sure will be full of wonders…

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Don’t Blame Yourself

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You

feel

heavy.

Crawling

out of bed

only brings

the gravity

of the situation

to a head;

Crushing you

to the

floor.

 

Dragging

yourself

to the shower

submerged in

steam.

A sorry,

naked thing.

The water

turns off but

you still rain

hot tears

down your

front.

 

A deep breath:

You pace yourself

accordingly.

Step out

of the

crowded

asylum.

‘’Today’’, you

muse

to yourself.

‘’Today will

Be a

better day.’’

 

But it

Won’t be.

 

 

Check out more of my poetry here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

 

 

Holding On To You

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Twenty One Pilots – Holding Onto You

 

The alarm shakes her awake, dried drool and morning breath her first unpleasant sensations of the day. Cherry bedsheets and strangers’ blankets are haphazardly wrapped around her chilly body. She sits up, the open curtains spilling sunlight into the cramped space. Blistering sunlight catches onto her raw neck, as she scratches it absent mindedly. A pair of manhandled trainers are hanging out of the window, rocking ever so gently to and fro in the breeze.

The music is still playing from his phone, but he doesn’t budge. She turns to him, but his face is hidden under a mass of auburn locks. Laboured breathing tells her that he’s starting to awaken, twitching his toes up and down.

She observes him for some moments, before deciding its best not to think about it. What exactly the ‘it’ was is difficult to determine, we only know that she cannot help but think back to another situation, not so different from this, which happened once so long ago, yet she cannot forget it.

The sweet tones of bird chirrups spur her into action, picking up her stray socks and underwear off the crowded floor. She thinks she’s fine. But then she remembers something, a vivid memory. A memory which she can smell and taste, one which she hadn’t thought of for a very long time. You can tell she’s deeply affected, but the way she bites her lip ever so slightly and shakes her head to herself silently, taking a deep breath.

No, she whispers to herself, try not to think of it.

Fully dressed, she heads out of the door.

 

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Art Deco

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Lana Del Rey – Art Deco

 

The Théâtre des Champs-Élysées is brimming with life.

In the centre of Paris, in the year 1913, a notably ravenous woman is on the way to meet a very special lady. Lady Renderghast, at twenty six years of age, in a silken, ivory dress with simply bursting, ripe breasts to match, trails her way down the aisles into the seat right at the front, right in the middle of the audience. She descends into the seat with a special form of refinement. Others stand around confused, waving their glasses of Perrier-Jouet Belle Epoque around with reckless abandon, as they cry meek protestations.

Why oh why has that darling lady taken the seat right at the front in the middle?

Oh, she will strain her neck so, it cannot do to be a lady with improper posture.

Whatever could be her reason to sit so far away from everybody else? Does she assume with her blonde, buxom locks and porcelain features, that she is simply better than the rest of us?

But she does not care for these insignificant, lifeless corpses. She is here for one reason only. Her lover will be here, and she wants a front row seat to the show.

The lights begin to die down, the remaining audience members taking their seats. Lady Renderghast drowns out the monotonous announcements over the intercom, staring at the marble rose gracing the dome of the theatre. It stares back at her, the centre of the rose one iridescent, all-knowing eye. It knows what she is about to do, and it is waiting to be entertained.

Then the show begins.

Luscious ladies donned in fluorescent feathers and glittering beads prance up and down the stage, waving their feathered boas along sleek shoulders. Smooth, juicy thighs rub together under sweltering stage lights whilst powdered breasts sweat and sag as they bounce left and right.

Lady Renderghast is disgusted by the masculine chuckles and chortles ringing in her ears from the audience behind her. She cares not for this trivial, selfish display. She wants something more private, more personal. This macabre, fake camaraderie is a mere ploy, a performance which benefits nobody, leaving the dancers sweat-soaked and violated, whilst the audience are rendered aroused, and yet wholly unfulfilled, to return home and argue with their misshapen whores of wives.

Lady Renderghast knows that when those beautiful women return backstage, there will always be that one, timid young child, who is overwhelmed by the intensity of those blistering eyes upon her, and will break down in frightened tears, feeling their fat, bulging fingers spreading over her virgin body.

The acts keep appearing, over the period of an hour. More dancers, magicians, a dazzling opera singer. But Lady Renderghast is here for the final act, the most pure, beautiful young girl she has ever seen. The reason she has booked the middle seat in the front row in every performance of this show every day in Paris.

Lady Renderghast was hopelessly overwhelmed by the fragile, innocent and all-consuming Adelisa Andre.

As the lights dimmed and the slender, shaking form stumbled its way on stage, cello in hand, Lady Renderghast took a sharp intake of breath, her misshapen heart taking in misshapen, crooked heartbeats.

Adelisa was a sweet girl of seventeen, with a pale complexion the same lifeless ivory as Lady Renderghast’s dress. Her knobbly knees and bruised knuckles simply yearned to be kissed, the way you’d nurse a child’s scraped knee in the back garden. Her hand me down, cerulean dress dragging down to her ankles contrasted the lifelessness of her tawny eyes.

Lady Renderghast squeezed her legs together as Adelisa spread her legs apart to accommodate the cello between them. The cold, hard wood against her legs made her shiver for a split second, and Lady Renderghast’s eyes ate up the sight, as the young girl gave a small intake of breath, her cheeks blushing a gentle, rosen pink.

And she began to play.

Deep, dulcet tones rocked the theatre in a way words could not describe. The once cackling audience were rendered speechless, as they were every week, every time this young soul stumbled her way across the stage like a nervous fawn caught in the headlights.

Lady Renderghast loved the soft, thoughtful impression on the girls’ face as she played; closed eyes and puckered lips a deep, rosy red. She loved the lacy, blue ribbon in her hair, which would sometimes work its way loose, tracing its way down her bare shoulder and down into her dress. But most of all, Lady Renderghast loved those beautiful hands of Adelisa’s; those long, dainty fingers that she imagined touching and kissing, sucking on them and hearing the sweet girl’s surprised moans at this before unexperienced contact.

Yes, Lady Renderghast was simply besotted. She consumed the entire scene, devoted it to memory and would never let it leave her.

The cello quickened its pace, the familiar appassionato tune bringing itself to a close.

This was the time, Lady Renderghast mused, the last time.

Her eyes never left the girls’ face, the beads of sweat dripping down her forehead, tracing down her nose and dripping with a silent thud onto the cello, reverberating down the silken wood as she plucked at the silver strings. Her fingers were a blur, the intricate motions with those bruised knuckles and dainty fingers looked so very sweet and kissable. Lady Renderghast was quite beside herself. Sat alone, in the middle of the front row, she felt this was a moment between the two women and those two only. Nobody else could infringe on this precious moment.

Then it was over. With one final strum of her fingers, Adelisa brought herself to a stand, her legs scarcely holding her weight. She quivered side to side nervously, picking at the frayed blue ribbon, some of which had worked its way into her mouth. Her pink tongue lapped it away hastily, but the damage was done. Lady Renderghast was trying her very best to control herself, but with little success.

The applause rocked the theatre for several minutes, cries for an encore seeming to never cease. The girl was so happy, her plump cheeks spread out into a pristine smile. As she looked out, she met the eyes of the lady in the middle of the front row.

Adelisa stared at Lady Renderghast quizzically, wondering just why this beautiful woman was sat all on her lonesome, her body so tight and twisted as if she were afraid that opening herself up would cause her to spill out, like a split fountain about to burst.

Adelisa pondered this odd scene for some moments, until a voice brought her to her senses, and she returned backstage.

One of the dancers from earlier was still sat, red-eyed, clutching her ostrich feather fan to her exposed chest. Her laboured breathing mirrored that of the woman in the front row. Adelisa was not sure how to feel, she knew that deep down she had been exposed to the same morbid, cannibalistic sensation as that dancer sat a few steps away from her, staining her cheeks sore.

And yet she didn’t feel anything but intrigue. Something new and exciting had awoken inside of her.

Taking a few more steps aside, she discovered a stage assistant, stood moving props back to their assorted bags. She gently tapped him on the shoulder, and he started. Turning around, she smiled at him. That pure, innocent smile that she knew how to do so well.

‘Excuse me sir, please may you ask the lady in the ivory dress on the first row to come see me in my room backstage, room 34? Its quire urgent, thank you.’

 


Want to read more creepily sexual stories? Check out my Gothic series, For I Am No Lover of Lilies

Alternatively, if you want to read more stories based off of music, check out my other series, A Tendency For Bitterness

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Stressed Out

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Twenty One Pilots – Stressed Out

 

She stood on the stage, sweating under the sweltering lights. A red microphone was thrust into her hand, echoing her slanted breaths and nervous coughs. The anticipating audience gazed up at her with charcoal eyes and wide-lipped grins. Misshaped heretics waiting to hear why she was here, in hell.

It was time to give her confession.

Amongst her muffled weeping, she told the story she did not tell anyone. In all her years she had kept this locked up inside her, the story she thought of when she first woke up and when she first went to sleep. The story which made her who she was, and was bound up irrevocably into her very essence of self. And she hated it.

They sat with bated breath while she told the story of her first murder. How the love-struck boy took her into his heart, and she festered there, silently but surely, eating away at his very core. Then she left. And he could not take it.

She told of the hand around her throat, the tears trailing down his cheeks, the inane grin plastered over his sculpted face, as he ripped out his heart from his hollow chest and showed it to the trembling girl.

And in place of a heart, was her.

But she was afraid, and so she ran. Running to the oppressive silence her room, she hid under her covers like a child, crying into her pillow and begging for some sort of release from these relentless emotions.

The next morning she gazed at the calendar. The ninth.

The ninth, she told herself assuredly, would be a better day.

The ninth, he had said to himself that very night, I do not care for the ninth.

And so the towering bridge seemed a welcome release.

Back on stage, she finished her story. It was over, she had said it. Said the one thing which must never, could never be said.

For the people would realize that she was not a good person, she was not even a person. She was a filthy, rotten thing that must be flung to the ground with distaste, crushed into the dirt and stomped underfoot for what she did. It was not fair that she was simply allowed to continue with life as if nothing had changed. She remained unscathed, and that was not real justice.

Silence. Indeterminable silence. She swallowed, and her fear echoed through the auditorium.

Then the laughter began.

Hundreds of wide-lipped smiles warped into sadistic grins, grins raising the skeleton roof and turning into hysteric cackling. Tears ran down their shapeless faces, as they laughed and laughed. They set the hall ablaze.

‘D-did you hear that?’ a shrill voice cried, ‘she killed him!’

Their squeals rang in her ears.

‘To feast on a person so completely, to drain every essence of his being… to render him so totally obsessed then just leave’, they cried between jagged breaths. ‘It is perfectly poetic!’

‘I bet his blood still stains the very ground she treads on!’ another voice screamed, spittle dripping down their fangs.

She looked down at her crimson stained hands, and it all came flooding back.

 


 

Read the rest of my musically inspired series, A Tendency for Bitterness, here! There’s more Twenty One Pilots on the way!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

 

New Book Cover – Hydraca!

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I’ve created another book cover with Richard Kefford!

After working together on covers for his two texts Two Boys from Brighton and Distance, Richard approached me with his idea for a story in a similar style to the Beast Quest novels that are so popular with young children today.

Richard created a brilliant monster, called the Hydraca and asked me to bring it to life. And whats better than a fluffy dragon residing in the mountains?

Final

 

Although this book won’t be available on Amazon, you can check out Richard’s other novels on his Official Amazon Page.

Check out his blog, as well as his group blog, The Moving Dragon Writes. I’ve also written some work on there, it’s full of all sorts of different writing!

Interested in your own book cover? Want some illustrations done? Check out my Commissions page for more information, or drop me an email at: rebeccasherratt@hotmail.com

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It’s Inevitable

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He reminded her of the man who had left so long ago, and it hurt her.

It hurt her so bad her throat would seize up and her eyes would sting, and she would have to leave all flustered before she said something she would regret. She would rush back to her room next door, closing the door with a resounding thud. Slowly, silently, she would turn the lock. She could not leave it open, for the fear she would wander back out and she mustn’t do that. No, no, such a thing should never happen.

She would stand there for several seconds, staring at her mismatched socks, twitching her toes in that erratic way she does when she’s in deep thought. She would think back to the man from all those years ago who she missed every day and every night.

He was an essential part of her being, her very core that simply didn’t exist without him. And yet, she couldn’t bring herself to consider the similarities between them. She would choose to ignore the way they both had the same crooked smile, the same long, nervous fingers and that very same way of doing simply everything. From confessing forbidden feelings to anything as simple as saying goodbye at the end of a long day.

It made her want to curl up into a ball and cry. She had worked so hard to move on and forget, yet here he was. Back again. He had risen from the depths of that fast-flowing river, his broken body fixed and glued back together with her fragile hands. She had pulled him away from that dangerous bridge on that stormy December night and brought him back, hand in hand, into her life again.

But it still wasn’t him. She knew she would have to let him fall back down into the depths again.

 

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Mystery Blogger Award!

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I’m a little late here, but thank you to Brandy for nominating me for the Mystery Blogger Award!   🙂 This is my second award, and they always make me feel super happy to receive them! ^^

 

The ‘Mystery Blogger Award’ is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts.Their blog not only captivates, it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging and they do it with so much love and passion. – by the creator of this award Okoto.

Rules:

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their  blog
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10-20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any five questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

 

3 Things About Myself:

  • I’m currently finishing up my undergraduate degree in ‘English Literature and Creative Writing’, and am excited to soon start a Masters Degree in ‘Gothic Literature’
  • Alongside writing and illustrating, another job I’d love to find out more about is animation, particularly animating music videos. I think that could be really interesting. I love anime music videos, like Madeon and Robinson’s Shelter or Daoko’s GIRL
  • I love my video games, and can’t wait for The Last of Us Part Two and Borderlands 3. Claptrap is my baby  ❤

 

The Answers to the Questions I Was Asked:

  1. What is your favorite social media platform?

I’m not a huge social media hog. I use them to be nosy, but rarely post stuff. I guess Facebook is what I use most, but I like Tumblr too.

2. If you could go back in time to any era, what would it be?

I think the 1920s would be interesting, with the whole Art Deco, Gatsby-esque aesthetics. But my first choice would still be the early 1800s, just to visit some spooky castles and creepy old back alleys, very Gothic and snazzy indeed.

3. What is your favorite book and why?

I have a few different ones. I love Angela Carter’s The Bloody Chamber, cause that’s the book that got me into feminist theory and Gothic literature back at college. But before that the Princess Diaries series by Meg Cabot was my favorite. The narrative voice is so informal and humorous, and the stories are so heartwarming. As soon as I finish my degree I’m re-reading all of them books again.

4. If you could fly, where would you go first?

Probably Akibahara in Japan, since that’s considered the city for anime and manga fans. I’ve never been abroad, so anywhere would be amazing. But Akibahara, and Japan as a whole, would be great to visit!

5. Why did you choose the blog title you chose?

I wanted something vaguely Gothic sounding, and elegant. I’d had this name in my head for a few years, so I thought I might as well use it. I like overly long names for pieces of fiction, but not for brand names or blog titles. They’re better short and sweet, I think.

 

My Top 3 Blog Posts:

Lavender

Goodbye to a World

Do Not Think of It

 

Who Am I Nominating?

I’m gonna try and nominate different people, so I’m not cursing the same unfortunate souls every time.

1. KindaDotWrite

2. CrumpledPaperPlanes

3. MaryLandPoetBlog

4. VikasChandra

5. EmotionsofLife2016

6. EmmaBaird

7. ForrestPasky

8. TheHerdlessWitch

9. TheSarahDougty

10. RavensRoad

 

My Questions for Those Nominated:

1. Who is your favorite literary author and why?

2. What do you do to relax after a stressful day?

3. Why and when did you start your blog?

4.What musicians have you seen in concert?

5.What is your favourite animated film or television show?

 

Thanks again to Brandy for my nomination!    🙂

Goodbye to a World

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Porter Robinson – Goodbye to a World

You trip and stumble, cutting your one fleshy hand on a jagged piece of machinery. Blood spurts down onto your jumpsuit, labelled R-3417. Your original name was lost so long ago, you can’t remember it.

The R, you presume, must have meant something to you once.

It stings. Your bandage barely covers the wound, as it seeps down your arm a strange green colour. It’s been so long since you’d last seen blood. Since the invasion, since the Solaars arrived, the machinery grew so vast and endless, nobody ever retained enough humanity to bleed. Not blood anyway, a fluid instead; an oozing, pulsating green fluid what corroded away through your very core, slowly ebbing away the last of your humanity.

But I am still human, you declare to the silent world around you, as the smoke makes your eyes water and stomach churn, even if I am the last one.

I’m still human. They cannot take it away from me.

You say that, but you can already hear the cogs winding in your chest. The process has already started to take shape, as it did with everyone. Once your heart stops, the machinery takes over. Fusing bone with bits, you awaken, revitalised and reprogrammed.

You do not want this to happen. Not while you are still searching for her. You know she is still here, waiting for you. She won’t give up, because she is the most kind and loving person you know and she will never succumb to them.

So you press onwards.

*

You reach the city, blinded by the lifeless, sterile whites and greys of the senphine walls. Patrollers fly to and fro, red lights traipsing between the shadowy buildings. Any intruder will be shot immediately through the skull, left to bleed to death on the fibreglass pavement. Then mere seconds later, they would be reconfigured, and would traipse across the land once more. Sargasso eyes and flooded machinery merely masquerading as their former selves.

The fenced-off building on the left must be where she is, you muse. But how will you get in there, past the patrollers?

They had increased the security since the last incident in the city. When floods of humans escaped, they had to resort to drastic measures to keep the remainders in line and subdue the riots. There was simply no way of stealing your way inside.

You sigh, staring at your hand. Not the one still bleeding, but your right hand. The one that doesn’t bleed anymore. The hand who’s flesh was eaten away by the cannibalistic circuitry over years and years of exposure to the xixine rays. It was heinous and disfigured, but it had its perks.

The throbbing display in the back of your hand lit up, with a list of binary code you used to be unable to decipher, until your brain fell to the same predator as your arm, and you felt the code beginning to make sense, with its eerie, wavering numbers shifting into familiar letters and symbols. So slowly and subtly, you barely even noticed it.

The screen displayed a variety of useful functions, from grenades to flashbangs, you could even alter your own genetic code and render yourself invisible for a limited time.

This would be the only way inside, you think, but it must be done.

Every time the display is used, your body alters that much more, accelerating the process by, well, who knows how long? The first few humans who got their implants used them so much, it took mere months for their vulnerable, fleshy hearts to stop and for starving circuitry to replace them. The rest of humanity soon took the hint and considered them curses, to be hidden away and used only in the direst situations.

But this was dire, you had to get to her. To check she was alright, was still… human. She had to be. Without her…

You get as close as is safe to be, the relentless humming of the patrollers making your frail, human heart race. A machines heart would never race like this. The patrollers would sense this, and recognise the threat approaching.

But there’s no choice. You can feel it as you press the button on your display and mutate just that extra inch further. You don’t have long left. You must see her. Know that she’s safe.

The pain surges through your every cell, as they receive the influx of chemicals.

Fuck it, you think.

You press the display once more, triggering the enhanced speed button. In this state it takes mere seconds to bypass the security and jump over the fences to the front door. Getting closer, the pristine ivory city has grown murky and dismal. Frayed wires, pumping crimson smoke through the atmosphere, lay tangled on the floor. The sooner you are inside the better.

The doors open with utmost silence. Not a creak or squeak. In fact, as they close and leave you in the dark, you realise just how very silent the entire facility is. Nobody is left. Broken machinery and flesh blend together in heaped masses on the floor, you traipse over them with haste.

It hurts still, the mutations are taking longer and longer to recover from.

You start to panic. This feels different. There isn’t much time left. You call her name, your voice breaking. It echoes in the abandoned facility. Running through the empty halls, you cry out for that special person you have spent so long searching for.

Hello?

You hear her voice. Down the hallway. Those sweet, sultry tones from the tender lips you remember kissing as the sky grew dark and the invasion came.

Your eyes blur, then suddenly sharpen. Human tears fall from your robotic eyes as you zoom in to see her down the hallway. She turns around, mousy hair swinging behind porcelain skin. The same two scars running down her cheek. You could never notice it before with your human eyes, but there is in fact a third scar. It trails down her nose to her upper lip, and it’s beautiful. It’s her. You desire to rain little kisses all over her perfect face.

The tears won’t stop. But they aren’t clear, salty raindrops anymore. They are oozing and green and they blur your vision and corrode away at your polished skin. You try to run to her, but your legs collapse under your weight. Flesh burns away, sticking to the filthy floor, resulting in a foul burning smell. You know it should hurt, but everything has stopped hurting. You can’t even remember why you were crying anymore. But you keep looking at her. You gaze at the figure running towards you and you can’t stop. If you close your eyes they won’t open again, and you want to see her one last time.

She is with you. Motioning her arms around you, but as you choke up more oozing bile you wrench yourself away. Spitting it out onto the melting ground, you try to call out to her. But your larynx is no longer there. It is all burnt out.

She moves close to you, crying real, human tears. Human snot running down her nose and into her mouth along with human spit and drool trailing down her chin. She is human.

Your last mortal sensation is that of utmost happiness and contentment, as your vulnerable, fleshy heart gives off one last beat, and the machinery works its way through your system.


This is one of my first real sci-fi stories, and I’m pleased with it! I’ll have to try writing more of these later ^_^

This story is based off Madeon’s song Goodbye to a World. You can check out the rest of my musically inspired stories here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

A Casual Observer

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The green light across the bay illuminates the putrid, smoky sky.

‘The sky does look so very putrid and smoky’, she says to the man upon the balcony, over the clamorous cacophony inside, ‘I really must go out and see this glorious sight.’

But he seems bored already by her lack of attention in him, his arm already around a buxom blonde in a tight, red dress.

‘What is that dear? Oh. Oh yes, absolutely. A glorious sight.’ And he is gone.

The mansion, with all its luxurious excess, bores her. The golden stairwells and diamond chandeliers reek of sweat and overindulgence. Pulsating jazz music pelters out of saxophones and trombones, making her ears bleed. But, regardless, the audience are enthralled.

‘Mr Jay Gatsby’, they coo over the screams and squeals of delight, ‘what a delightful young fellow Mister Gatsby must be!’

They say nobody has ever even seen him, she muses. He must be an irrevocably dull man to throw such splendid parties for all the nobodies of West Egg.

She descends the glittering balcony, out of the arms of drunk, slovenly men with quivering moustaches and drooling lips. With a domineering authority, she parades past the singing gentleman on the piano, past a gorgeous brunette talking of golfing with a remarkably ordinary looking man.

A casual observer at the best, he seems. But he stares at the brunette with such a look of intense wonderment, she supposes he might have his own story one day.

Outside the air is cool, the sky still putrid and smoky. In the courtyard she hears the sweet sound of laughter. A man as golden as the gaudy mansion stands under the patio, with a similarly golden woman. Her platinum locks trail down her shoulders, as they whisper in each other’s ears and he caresses her shoulders. His eyes seem rooted firmly in the past and it is clear he can’t fully comprehend what is happening, as his lips touch those of the miserly woman’s beside him.

The dock is calm and quiet. At the very end resides a wrought-iron bench, perched atop it a pair of binoculars and a writing pad. Over the bay, you can perfectly see yet another glorious estate. Beautiful, lush green gardens twinkle over the water. The rippling waves give the illusion of progress, like you are almost floating towards this beautiful home.

Which home is the best? She wonders. I suppose it is difficult to tell. The sky is so putrid and smoky after all. Maybe on a clearer day, it would be easier to decide.

She suddenly feels immensely tired, laying down onto the bench, feet splayed up. The sound of waves, ceaselessly borne back, lull her to sleep.

 


 

As you probably noticed, this story is based off of Fitzgerald’s The Great Gatsby! I was listening to the soundtrack to the Baz Luhrmann film, and it got me writing the story of another soul at one of Gatsby’s illustrious parties.

I hope you liked it! More of my flash fiction can be read here!

 

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt, (adapted from ‘The Great Gatsby’; copyright © 1925 F. Scott Fitzgerald).

Car Radio

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Twenty One Pilots – Car Radio

 

A shrill octave followed by the life renouncing coda.

Music awoke him from the car radio.

Something cool was dripping down his forehead, trailing along his nose and into his mouth. He coughed up metallic spittle, several teeth caught in the crossfire. Everything was red. A deep crimson and submerged in melting metal.

He picked his head up from the driving wheel, shards of glass rustling through his hair to fall onto his lap. His left arm was unresponsive.

He turned to his right. A woman he once knew well was hunched over, hair fused with gore and vehicle. Motionless.

Coughing up another tooth, he weakly called her name.

No response but the furnace of heat roaring from the car engine, and the soothing sounds of Chopin playing on the radio.

Could he even dare to turn around, to look behind him at the scene in the child’s seat? A brief look in the rear-view mirror proved his worst fear true.

It was all his fault. His vision blurred as tears mixed with blood, but he couldn’t hear anything over the blissful tunes of the violin on that damn radio.

So he returned to sleep.

 

 

You can read the rest of my musically-inspired series, A Tendency for Bitternesshere!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Russian Roulette

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Rihanna – Russian Roulette

 

‘Just close your eyes’, he whispers into my ear, ‘sometimes it helps.’

But it doesn’t.

It just brings my attention to the heavy, musty cigarette smoke drowning my voice out in the cramped, dismal room. And how intensely cold the barrel of the gun is against my quivering temple.

I take in harsh breaths, panicking. I can’t do it, I can’t do it.

A broad hand encircles my timid waist. I melt amongst his cedar wood cologne and sweet lips on the nape of my neck.

‘Come on’ he mumbles, ‘just pull the trigger, it will be fine.’

It won’t be fine. Four rounds already delivered, all empty. Two left. A fifty-fifty chance.

I feel the gaze of his dirty companions, burning into my shivering body, keeping my eyes closed doesn’t hide the excitement in their eyes, the sheer thrill coursing through their throbbing veins.

They want to see the bloodshed.

It’s been so long, I hear one murmur in a husky voice. The squeal of a young woman assaults my ears, as she’s forced onto his lap and groped violently.

I lower the pistol, I can’t do it.

A hand pushes it back to its former place against my head.

‘My love’, he whispers, ‘my love, please. For me.’

I cannot deny him. I can’t do it.

I pull the trigger.

 


Listening to some old-school Rihanna brought this one back. I’d forgotten how much I used to like her music.

Read the rest of my musically-inspired writing here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

For Want of a Brother

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As part of a challenge with Auri, we’ve both sent each other three photos and are going to write three pieces of creative writing based off each photo! All of my stories are connected, and here is my final piece, based off of the following photo:

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Simon was a trusting child. He had always been that way. A blissful childhood full of strawberry kisses and warm, sun-showered hugs tended to do that to children.

He was so trusting, that when the strange woman asked him to take her hand and follow her someplace fun and exciting, he didn’t even question it for a second.

Simon remembered how very warm and strong that woman’s greasy grip was. The way she forced him forwards, with not-so-tender pushes towards a very scary, very dangerous alleyway what Simon had never gone down before.

Wayward needles, bin bags and rotting rubbish littered the street, leaving an unpleasant smell Simon couldn’t pinpoint, spreading through the smoke and ash. His brand new red trainers, which he had so pestered his mother to buy, were already filthy from the caked mud spread over them. He had tripped twice, his grazed knee burning. But the woman wouldn’t stop, no matter how much Simon now began to plea.

Please, missus, please. I’m hurt miss, I’ve hurt ma’ leg real bad and I think I need a plaster on it.

His cries for help were silenced by the howling of the sharp-toothed dogs in the street. They raced round, growling in a way that reminded Simon why he was so scared of dogs. Connor had always made fun of him for it, but as he watched the two feral creatures reach for each other’s necks, fighting over the last remainder of a rats carcass, he realised his fears weren’t so stupid after all. At least he wasn’t scared of frogs, like Austin was.

Now that was a stupid fear, Simon thought to himself, I wonder where Connor and Austin are, right now.

By this point, the woman was practically dragging Simon along the floor. A shred of thin plastic had gotten caught in the knots of his shoes, making an uneasy scraping noise as it danced above the ground. But she wouldn’t stop. She still kept pulling Simon along, the urgency growing only greater as her breaths deepened and the sweat dripped from her brow.

Simon decided in that moment that he didn’t trust this lady anymore.

Excuse me missus, he began, trying to pry her fingers from his arm one by one. I really need to go. My brothers are probably wondering where I am. We were busy playin-

The woman snapped her head around, her watery eyes and bulging cheeks made Simon feel sick. She never even said anything. With one fatal swoop, she picked him up into her arms, and dashed to the dilapidated, black Honda in the shadows of a closed off motel.

Simon, his parents would later find out, never came out of that car alive. Simon was not given strawberry kisses or sun-showered hugs in that dismal, blood-stained car. No amount of strawberry kisses or sun-showered hugs could make up for the monstrous things that took place in that claustrophobic torture chamber. What happened to Simon is unrepeatable.

And Connor and Austin would not find out the exact details of what happened for a long time, not until they were well into their adult years, and thought together on one sad, grey day, when the rain hung listlessly in the sky:

What exactly happened to our favourite little brother?

Thanks again to Auri for the challenge! I really enjoyed doing this ^_^

Auri’s also wrote some brilliant work based off of my photos: Part OnePart Two

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

For Want of a Distraction

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Part One!

As part of a challenge with Auri, we’ve both sent each other three photos and are going to write three pieces of creative writing based off each photo! All of my stories are connected, and here is my second one, based off of the following photo:

Read Auri’s work too: Part OnePart Two

All of my stories are connected, and here is my second one, based off of the following photo:

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Straying from the path usually led to exciting discoveries.

Austen did not think this would be the case today.

Everything in the forest had a resounding

stillness.

Even the harvesting cicadas

hung listlessly

like the rain

t

h

a

t

f

e

l

l

On that sorry day

When Connor told him

that Simon was no more.

The clementine that day tasted

bitter.

It tasted like the                    rotten flesh            drowned in the rotten river

Where he was found

broken

 and

 mangled.

His very

Favourite

Brother.

Read the final part here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

For Want of a Clementine

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As part of a challenge with Auri, we’ve both sent each other three photos and are going to write three pieces of creative writing based off each photo! All of my stories are connected, and here is my first one, based off of the following photo:

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It fell onto his face with a resounding thud, knocking him back into the dirt.

Connor wiped the cold mud off his chin, staring up at the trees.

The perpetrators filthy pair was still hoisted up above, nestled in the trees. Waving to and fro, as a mother rocks her baby to sleep.

It whistled to him with a surprising stillness.

Bet’cha can’t reach me. Bet’cha can’t reach me.

It reminded him of the way Austen would tease him, in their back-garden every summer, as he clambered his way clumsily up the coarse branches into his makeshift treehouse.

I want to come up too, Austen! Help me up, help me up!

But Austen would merely smile, pick a bruised clementine off the nearest branch, then slowly peel off its skin and bite down on what Connor could only assume was the juiciest, most delectable fruit in existence.

Connor would grow indeterminably angry, kicking the tree trunk and crying exclamations about what a cruel big brother he was, what a very cruel person he was to treat his sibling this way. His fists scrambled at the grass, tearing it apart and throwing it up into the air, only for it to slowly trail back down into his mouth.

I’m your only brother, you should be nicer to me! He bawled, crumpled down into the dirt, ripping the fallen leaves into bite-size pieces.

He shouldn’t have said that. He really should not have said that.

The fragmented leaves ascended into the air with a resounding flourish, as Austen jumped down to the ground, grabbing Connor by the scruff of his neck.

Don’t you talk like that, he roared into Connor’s ear, don’t you talk like he’s gone and never coming back!

A violent push shoved Connor to the ground, the sound of heavy footfalls growing quieter and quieter. His last brother, gone.

The rain hung listlessly in the sky.

Read part two here! And part three here!

Don’t forget to check out Auri’s writing, based off of the photos I sent her!  Here is her first poem! And her second part, a story,

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Coming Down

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Halsey – Coming Down

 

She found God in a lover.

With auburn hair, and those confident strokes of his bony fingers.

He would love her for her wrongdoings, and pray to the demons beneath that she would remain a monster forever, a beacon of the very sin he had seduced womankind to commit.

Every evening, sopping wet from the rain, he would come.

Violently, uncontrollably, relentlessly.

And so would she.

Obscured pleasures before unknown would open up to her, and those maroon eyes sparkled alight, with every new receptor finding itself awoken and aflame, as the rain played against the windows.

Loudly, furiously, relentlessly.

Then, as it neared its conclusion, there would be one, solitary kiss. A reminder that this did not, and could not, mean something. It simply wasn’t allowed, for something so all-consuming would destroy them both, leave them festering from the core until they were merely hollow shells.

Then he would leave, and she was left to process what she had done. Regret and guilt would pierce the empty place in her obsidian soul.

And so it would continue, endlessly, even after December came, and the life expired from his mutilated body.


 

I’ve written quite a few more stories based off of Halsey’s music, you can check them all out here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

We Think Ahead

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A merlot tablecloth

Bottles of scotch

Cigarette smoke

And tearful eyes.

 

Around the table

Stained with tears

And lovers juices

Juxtaposing characters.

 

His garnet shirt unbuttoned

Women’s glossy hands

Spread over his chest

Caressing his cheeks.

 

His brother, they say

Cigar betwixt plump lips

Staring at me, unrelenting

Stripping rosen skin with reptilian eyes.

 

The beautiful sister,

Modele ou une femme

Sangria dress full of

Puckered breasts, heaving breaths

 

The gun loosens rounds

Knocking stray chips along the

Whiskey sodden table

 

Contemplating the instrument

Pressing it to the head

Of the girl in his lap

Pulls the trigger.

 

She smiles and

Falls to the

Ground.

 

‘Nevermind’, he coos

In his lovelies ear.

That’s why we all

Wear red.


 

See more of my poetry here!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Unravel

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Tokyo Ghoul OP – Unravel

In the familiar coffee shop

He recollects her

Slim pianist fingers

Tracing down

Ivory keys.

 

Pause.

 

Don’t

Be afraid.

Don’t crack

Your fingers that

Way he used to do.

 

Pause.

 

Mournful, swollen eyes

Smudge crimson

Mask donned

Tongue lolling

Down.

 

Pause.

 

Spittle

Raining down

Forming a juicy puddle

You feed relentlessly now

As bones crunch between your teeth.

 


 

Thanks Auri for this request!   🙂 I love Tokyo Ghoul‘s opening, but this got me really into the acoustic version *^*

This reminds me that I still need to finish watching series two of the anime…

You can read the rest of my musically inspired series, A Tendency for Bitternesshere!

Auri’s 100 Follower Challenge!

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Well done to Auri for reaching 100 followers and 1000 blog views!   🙂 It’s an awesome achievement, and I’m sure her blog will only continue to grow!

She also set up a cool challenge for her followers, so here’s my mine!   🙂


 

  1. Start with the first post you ever wrote. Talk about how it felt writing it and your feelings about it now.

My first post was And we Begin! which was a sort of general introduction to what I’d be doing on my blog., My first real piece was rather my short story Lavender, which I think suitably set the tone for my monstrous standards of writing and heinous morals.

2.Give a shout out for your first follower. Are you still in touch with them? Do you have something to say to them? Here’s your chance!

My very first follower was Kent at DirtySciFiBuddha. I don’t contact him all that much, but generally, whenever I see his posts, he always looks very professional; he seems very much into the self-publishing game, which I always find impressive! I wish I could create a large enough project to create a full book and be able to publish it, that’s definitely a goal I’d like to complete one day!

3. Your first like. How did you feel?

Awesome! It always feels nice to see how my posts are gradually getting more and more popular. For the last interview I was tagged in by R L Tierney I went back to my past posts and remembered being so happy when they got about 5 or 6 likes on them. Now I’m averaging between 30 and 40, which isn’t much to some but it makes me feel so accomplished that I keep improving!

4.The day you felt it was a terrible idea to start blogging.

I’ve never really felt that way, to be honest. It’s led to me starting my art commissions company and I’ve met some great friends online. Admittedly, when I’m drowning in commissions, uni work, and then I have to keep writing and drawing to keep the blog updated, it can get quite stressful, but I’m a workaholic, so generally its a nice feeling! I suspect this exam season I will be struggling though…

5. The blog you felt was your inspiration to write.

There wasn’t really any particular blog which inspired me… I was just sat around all summer and thought that I don’t want to be sat around doing nothing like I do every other holiday! But I suppose all the millions of little blogs that post regular comics like PDL and EatMoreBikes were an inspiration. I’d love to do some short comic strips like that, alongside my writing!

6. How you designed and formatted your blog.

That was horrific. I’m still very much getting used to WordPress, and I remember almost giving up after a week or two because I just couldn’t work out how to get anything working. I still don’t know how the ‘Blog’ button works. What’s the difference between a blog post and normal post? Help me. >,< If anyone knows, please comment and tell me!

I basically just messed around and hoped for the best! I keep meaning to draw up a new header for the site too, cause I have much better pens and materials now. Over time I just added new stuff in, like Projects and widgets etc, but it all takes time to get used to. I should really learn how to use HTML codes…

7. The first comment on your site.

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8. First blogger who became a friend.

That would probably be DeanJean, its a really nice feeling when you read each other’s work and learn from it. Her poetry is great, I wish I could write like that!

9. The very last follower until today.

My latest follower was Faithless Paladin. I’ve just had a nosy at their blog and they seem to write some great poetry!    🙂

10. A blog that made you feel your site needs serious improvements.

All of them. Every blog ever. Hmm… probably just those blogs that post a new article literally every two seconds, it’s like, how?? One post every 3-4 days is about the best I can manage!

 

There will be no nominations except for your first follower.

Ok then, looks like you’re up, Dirty SciFi Buddha!
And thanks again for the challenge Auri!    🙂

Young God

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Halsey – Young God

 

The sun rose with tremendous speed, blinding the metamorphosing girl as she emerged from her cocoon. She shrunk back instinctively, a hiss escaping from her sharpened fangs.

She thrust herself out into the sweltering heat, diving into the pool beneath. Drowning her thoughts out. The water burnt her new, unadulterated skin, but she knew she deserved it. She knew what she had done, and it was sinful. If only she could stay hidden down here forever.

Then his hand gripped her firmly, thrusting her upwards into an explosion of syntheasia. Lavender clouds and chirping flowers brought her back to life, as she rose out of the golden, humming waters to glare at him.

Harlequin eyes gazed back at her, dilated pupils scented with copper and onyx. He leant forward, caressing her stonework cheek. As he did so, she felt her auburn hair sense her new body. It grew fluorescent and effervescent, rendering itself crimson and cardamom. The colour of the sins she had committed.

Opening her mouth, she tried her best to speak. But no words came out, only a dozen strawberry butterflies, caught in the web of her song. They flocked upwards to the marmalade skies, disappearing from her vision.

He offered out his hand, never smiling nor offering any words of comfort. She knew what she had accepted when he made love to her underneath the blood moon.

And so they ascended upwards, stumbling through heaven, as young gods.

 


 

Halsey’s music is always so easy to write to. You can check out the rest of the writing I’ve done based off her music here! There’s also other artists such as Twenty-one Pilots, Aphex Twin, and soon it will be inundated with monstrous amounts of Lana Del Rey!

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

 

Scrutinise the Scene

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She caressed and fondled

The plush toy

Softly

And it

Sung her

Sweet songs

Of when they were

Blissfully, ignorantly, together.

 

Its round, marble eyes

Would trace her form

Gliding throughout

The empty room

And she felt

His gaze

Burning

Her

Skin.

 

Then the day came

When they knew

Why it remained

And the secrets

Would never be

So secretive anymore.

 

 

 

You can check out more of my poetry here!

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My Immortal

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Evanescence – My Immortal

 

The castle battlements were filthy. Their bare toes gouged their way through the sodden moss, revealing cockroaches and glistening slugs on the crenelations and turrets. He would occasionally grimace, grow startled, quivering from side to side.

She would reach towards him, ready to save him should he fall. The sound of the crows chirping and wind ricocheting through the barbed branches up above was the very essence of childhood for the duke and duchess.

But this was adulthood. Things were not so quaint as before.

The battlements were slippery. Tracing their way past drowned corpses of rats and lacewings, they did not care for the rotten carcasses crushed underfoot.

She walked behind him, as always. Watching him trace his way along to the western arch. When he slipped and tumbled, she would no longer hold her arms out, she did not even flinch, and nor did he.

This was why they were here, after all.

As they climbed the jagged stonework, the twilight moon rose in the sky, and rain fell in blistering sheets. Her ivory nightdress, now sullied with dirt and grime, grew caught on loose ironwork. It tore, leaving her open to the elements.

Crow caws signalled their progress. They were almost there.

He paused, turned around and stared at his sister. He reached out for her bruised hand.

They traced the final steps together, silently, assuredly.

Brother and sister had arrived. Upon the parapet, they were in a place they had never dared approach, even as adventurous children.

Her emotionless eyes conveyed just one message.

Ready?

He was.

And they jumped.

*

She awoke with a throbbing pain in her side, her right leg swollen and crushed.

A shrill, unpleasant voice rang in her ear. The household doctor, and the local surgeon. Chattering at top speed, asking her a million and one questions, which she didn’t dare answer.

Her ears were cloudy and waterlogged. Instead, she looked to her right.

His bed was empty.

A miracle… a sheer miracle, she heard from above the water.

She sighed, feeling familiar eyes digging into her.

I will have to try again later.


 

How very cheerful.

Want to read more depressing tales? My Gothic tag is absolutely full of them!

Or if you’d like to read more from my musically-inspired series, A Tendency for Bitterness, you can do so here!

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Writers Interview

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Thanks to R.L.Tierney for tagging me in this writer’s challenge! 🙂 I feel honored *bows*

Her blog is full of some great stories and poetry, so I strongly recommend giving her blog a look!     🙂

1. Name?

Rebecca

 

2. Five words that describe your writing?

Emotional, passionate, ambiguous, cynical, tragic.

 

3. Literature / art / films you’d recommend?

Books: The Bloody ChamberA Series of Unfortunate Events and The Princess Diaries
TV: For me, this has got to be anime. So… KiznaiverMadoka Magica and I recently watched Magical Girl Raising Project, which was pretty good!
Films: Shinkai’s Your NameKill Bill and at Christmas I watched Me Before You, which was horrifically depressing, but great.

4. Images, symbols, and settings you associate with your work?

Flowers are key, especially lilies. May have stolen that from Angela Carter    🙂   I also frequently use settings such as forests and bridges in my stories.

 

5. Themes / concepts you are hesitant to write about?

I’ve never been a big fan of using dialogue. I’ve noticed in my creative writing degree that seems to be the case with a lot of people though…

Also, when I write fast-paced action sequences I’m pleased with them, but I still rarely ever dare write them >,<

6. What would you tell someone who’s nervous about starting out?

I’d say to use other media as key influences when starting off writing. Whether it’s music, or thinking about a book/film, if you’re struggling for inspiration it really helps. And not everything you write will be amazing, but it gets easier the more you write. You start to learn what you’re good at and keep improving, till you’re a writing ninja!

7. Three of your writings you’d recommend to people who’d like to know more about you?

I think:

Murky WatersThe Erl Queen and Idle Curiosity

8. What pushes you to keep writing?

It sounds silly, but I like to treat running this blog almost like a job, or extra part of my uni work. That way I keep it updated regularly, and reap the benefits from it. So much work from here has come in useful, whether for my dissertation or masters applications.

Also writing about personal stuff really helps me understand my own feelings about things. I used to write in journals a lot, and this is now my new way of letting out my own frustrations and feelings, which seems more productive and interesting.

 

Time to tag some unfortunate souls!

In the Name of Love

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Martin Garrix and Bebe Rexha – In the Name of Love

Thanks to R L Tierney for requesting I write about this song!   🙂   I’ve gotten ever so slightly addicted to it now.

 

His hands cover my eyes, a smooth caramel voice urging me forwards. The cool air blows my crimson dress up, exposing my shivering legs.

What are you doing? I enquire quizzically, I hope you’re not leading me anywhere dangerous.

He chuckles, nuzzling his face into my chestnut hair. I shiver, and he holds me close.

His scent drowns me and I allow myself to be swallowed up.

Don’t you worry, he whispers in my ear.

A few more stumbled steps, as the cold marble floor. He lets go of me.

Open your eyes, darling.

And I am bathed in light.

A skyline of limes, tangerines and cherries. I look down, my body a myriad of iridescence against the night time sky. In the mirrors I gaze at my distorted body, painted into a nameless palette. I am a canvas flecked with all the colours of the rainbow.

His fingers intertwine with mine, pushing me through the mirrors, raining candyfloss shards upon my face.

I fall down the endless storeys, wind slicing my fingers where his warmth still resides. My hands smudge coral, then crimson, then ivory once more.

Lungs fill, full and heavy, with chromatic water as I delve into the pool. My limbs are sore, but he is there, at the very bottom. He extends out an arm and I reach out, chlorine stinging my eyes.

We bathe in the lights, staring up at the water from the endless expanse beneath.

But still, something isn’t right…

I turn around, and in the despairing depths my voice makes no sound as I choke out.

Shouldn’t you be…?

He stares at me, solemnly placing his hands over my eyes once more.

And we are once more back home. The shrill beep of your dialysis machine at the same, monotonous pace. Where the sadness leaves you broken in your bed.

 


I hope you like it! This one went a little weird…

Have a song you’d like me to write about? Drop me a request here!

And read the rest of my musical series, A Tendency for Bitterness, right here!

 

Copyright © 2017 Rebecca Sherratt

Blogger Recognition Award

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I’m a little late here, but thank you to Acacia Aurora for nominating me for the Blogger Recognition award!   🙂 I’ve never had any award like this, so I feel honored *bows*.

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I also strongly recommend checking out Aurora’s blog, she posts lots of fun lists about anime and manga, as well as the odd creative writing piece! I’ve also shared a poem or two of hers, which you can see here!

Rules for the Nomination:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you
  • Give a brief history on your blog and how it started
  • Give two tips to new bloggers
  • Nominate up to 15 fellow bloggers

 

Brief History of my Blog:

Over the summer of 2016, as I continually procrastinated doing my creative writing dissertation, I thought I should really put myself out there and do more creative writing. I’ve always enjoyed the idea of it, but other than writing done specifically for university I’d never really bothered to write anything else. But since I was full of ideas, I thought why not make a blog for it?

Then after a few people enquired after my drawings, I ended up starting my art commissions business, and I’ve already made 3 book covers, and hope to do much more! 🙂 The money I made from them has paid for an art tablet, so now I can learn how to do my sketches on the computer ^_^

And it’s only been, what, six months? And I’ve just reached 500 followers, so thank you!

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Tips for New Bloggers:

  1. I know Aurora said the same thing, but it really can’t be stressed enough: get talking to people on here and socialize! If I hadn’t contacted as many people as I had, I probably wouldn’t have ever started my art commissions service. And having regular friends who read each others work is really nice. You learn from each other’s work and its such a lovely, supportive atmosphere!
  2. Erm, another I’d probably say is one more specifically aimed at creative writers. One of my friends, DeanJean (who’s blog is also worth checking out) said she felt the pressure to post writing regularly meant she felt like her work wasn’t of a great quality. In fact, she felt like she was rushing work out just for the sake of posting it. I’ve also felt the same, and its best to avoid that! Don’t go rushing out work just because >,< Take your time and make sure each piece is something you’re completely happy with, you’ll get so much more out of it!

 

Nominations:

Well, there’s no way I could think up fifteen whole people, but here we go!

AcaciaAurora (Since you’ve just had to write a million of these I’m gonna make you write one more, muahahaha!)

DeanJean

EmotionsofLife2016

FlyingBanshee

ForrestPasky

GeorgiaAlanisCampbell

TheHerdlessWitch